Holding On

Bidding farewell to May and welcoming June in really soon; [time flies!] 2014, what an interesting year for me! By my own strength, I already feeling so fearful to continue the journey because of many uncertainties that surprisingly took place and some happened probably due to the decision that I might had wrongly made.

Such a long time I never felt so defeated and tired to journey on the destination! Rushing to catch from one train to another train can be really tiring especially with heavy luggage of uncertainties and worries. Sometimes, I felt like I just want to stop at one particular station and stop moving!

[Stop moving.... To catch my breath!]

Well, life is full of uncertainties and for some it can quite terrifying! If I am not careful, I might letting the uncertainties of life to paralyze me with fears! This year, I learned so much about being patience and wait upon God. When He started something in me, He will definitely bring it to completion according to His perfect timing. [He will never too early, never late but always on time!]

I always remember that someone had wrote this for my brother that also speaks to me so much that I remembered it until today...

"God didn't promise you a smooth journey in your life,

but He promised to walk with you every steps of your life!"

Recently, due to some uncertainties that I am facing, God never fails to show me that He is faithfully keeping His promises. And I am clinging to His faithfulness. My future is in His hands! The race is on and I am hanging on to His strength to journey on this race.

[Ting... Ting... Where is my next destination? I don't know but I am trusting the *Train Driver to lead me to the destination that He always wanted me to go!

*(The Train Driver who is my God who loves me unconditionally)]

[PRE-Twenty Fourteen] What a GREAT Lost!

[I wanted to write this post before Christmas but it was so difficult to put into words. Therefore this post was delayed until today]

It wasn't nice and it was painful when I received a sad news early in the morning, that one of my ex-radiologist from my previous work place passed away due to myocardial infarction [heart attack]! I wasn't really that close to him but there was two incidences with him that had make me harder to accept his sudden passing!

I didn't have a good working relationship with him at first; he made me so upset one day on the phone and I was so disappointed with him. Until one fine night, I dreamed about him! I was so surprised and it was really strange [strange not because I dreamed about him but the dream changed my perceptive about him!] I even wrote a post about it [http://jackyltroy-morethanwords.blogspot.com/2011/10/strange-dream.html] Personally, I don't believe in coincidence, therefore the dream wasn't coincidence, God was preparing me to see a different side of him in real life! Guess what, few months after that, something took place and changed our working relationship! To my [and also some of colleagues] surprise, he came to me and talked to me like a friend! From then onwards, I really enjoyed working with him.

A month before I left to a different work place, I came across a case where I was working with him. Due to some miscommunication, he became a little agitated and he scolded me! I was so upset and I knew it was just some miscommunication in between. Since it was my last month of working, so I didn't take his scolding seriously where I just accepted it without being angry at him. Shortly after the case finished, I continued with my work, suddenly he came in into the examination room to check the radio-graphs, then, he talked to me nicely regarding the incidence that took place and he reassured me.

[His assurance was one of the many great memories that I had before I left; also cherished and missed!]

Sadly, I left my work place without saying goodbye to him because he wasn't around on my last day! Thought of going back to meet him but now, it will be something that I can't do it anymore!

[You'll be deeply missed and always remembered!]

The fragility of life is way beyond our imagination! Don't take things for granted especially your loved ones and friends. Therefore, here is my suggestion, why not take this year as the opportunity to spend more quality times with your loved ones and also your friends!

Blessed New Year!

Left Too Long...

My last post was so long ago! Many things to write about but some are very difficult to put into words. Recently, I went through many emotional roller-coaster rides. I will, surely will, will write it down but maybe not now because my thoughts are still pretty messy and everywhere which I need to put it down one by one and also arrange it properly. It definitely requires a little bit time to do it.

Please bear with me and I will surely come back again!

Tiny Life [Miniature Effect]

[These snapshots were taken with my iPhone 3GS 
and edited with Snapseed]

[But sometimes I think it's such a simple thing

I close my eyes and I realize

All I really need is the love I have

And the love I have to give

Anything else there is, is insignificant

In this TINY LIFE.

- taken from Danny Gokey's song, Tiny Life]

...just a [Vulnerable & Imperfect] HUMAN

["I'm a writer. An amateur photographer. An actor.
I'm human, just like anybody else" - Ben Affleck]

I watched so much celebrities interviews recently on a famous talk show. What I have learned from what I have watched is that celebrities are just a human, someone who are also as vulnerable and as imperfect as we are. [Yes!] They are very much a human like you and I, who is also come from the same Creator! There is only one difference between them and us is that their career or job require them to be on TV, magazine or newspaper quite often and eventually making them a famous person.

[With Elvis Presley wax figure at Madame Tussauds Hong Kong]

Just because they are somebody famous, always on headlines, but does it mean that they are someone who is 'mistakes proof'? [Nope!] Sadly, people set a very, very high expectation on them; expecting them to be perfect, say the right thing, do the right thing and make the right choice. If you say that they are someone on the TV, therefore they have to [always] set a good example for everyone who are watching them, then, how about us? Well, we are not famous like them because our career or job do not require us to be on headlines or on TV but some of us are working in a very professional job [like doctor, engineer, pilot, bus driver, teacher, tutor, a church pastor, manager, businessman, etc] does it mean that we don't need to set a good example?

[Leave the celebrities alone, they are human too! We can make mistakes and so are they, therefore, we have no right to judge anybody! Everyone, including myself, should take responsibility to set a good example and making a difference in someone's life!]

To begin, it has to start from us! ["Be the change that you wish to see in the world" - Mahatma Gandhi] Secondly, don't lose heart, keep showing your compassionate by bringing love to the people around you. ["People don't care how much you know until they know how much you care" - John C. Maxwell] Sometimes, life can be bad, unwanted circumstances can happen to anybody, therefore, with a compassionate heart, we can be the instrument or an agent for God to bring joy and comfort to the needy!

Don't underestimate yourself, what you are just a play a small role but who you are is more important; your character and your attitude is crucial when it comes to setting a good example and making a difference in someone's life and to the world! Yes, no doubt we are very much a human, often times a vulnerable and an imperfect one but if we begin with our willing heart by allowing God to make us as His vessel, don't be surprised, He can use us to do mighty great things for Him!

[Always begin with willingness and top up with LOVE!

"So no matter what I say, what I believe, and what I do, I'm bankrupt without love. 

- 1 Corinthians 13:3b (MSG)"]

God bless! Cheerio :)

The Red Velvet Cake

Seriously, [nothing to be ashamed of] my first time eating red velvet cake was on last year! One of the patients from my hospital blessed the whole radiology team with her handmade red velvet cake or else I wouldn't have known about this cake. I was so touched and felt blessed by this token of appreciation from this lady [it might seems so little but it was a BIG thing to me]. First time eating red velvet cake and yet it was so meaningful to me. Therefore, from that day on, red velvet cake is not just a mere chocolate cake that tinted with red food coloring, it has become something significant to me!

[I was so excited; felt so touched and blessed, immediately, I took a picture of it and post it onto my Instagram account and shared the picture with my followers]

I know, sometimes our little act of kindness are very much taken granted for. But don't lose heart, keep doing it, keep showing your kindness because you will never know that this little act of yours might bring a GREAT joy in someone's heart, just like this lady who brought so much joy to me through her handmade red velvet cake but of course her act of kindness wasn't little at all but a BIG one for me!

So, are you ready to do the red velvet blessing? [Hahaha...]

I mean, don't lose HEART, go out and start making a difference, a HUGE one, in someone's life today!

God bless! :)

[p/s: Guess what, on my 27th birthday this year, my Besties got me a slice of red velvet cake for my birthday!]

Jacky Lai Snapshotography

I just started my little humble photography blog [More Than Many Words; Jacky Lai Snapshotography]:-

http://morethanmanywords.wordpress.com/

[Hehehe...] Nothing to proud of, just want to share my simple snapshots [Instead of PHOTOGRAPHY, I used SNAPSHOTOGRAPHY because I am still very much an amateur photographer!]

I love photography and always want to use this passion that I have to serve God and give Him all the glories through the photographs that I captured.